You’re not the same as you used to be.

You’ve changed. You used to smile more. You showed me you loved me. You used to look at me with happiness. Now you never smile. You stare too much. Why don’t you listen. If you just did it how I said, you wouldn’t have this problem. That’s not how you do it. I’ve told you before, why can’t you remember. This should be simple you know. You’re always overthinking. Things don’t have to be perfect.

Don’t touch me like that. You know I don’t like repetitive touching. This isn’t the right way to go. You should have done it this way. What is wrong with you. You can’t finish anything. You feel too much. They’re just words Christine, they don’t hurt. You just need to get over it. No one likes what they do. We are all tired. Everything doesn’t have to be such a big deal. You stare too much. If you had just done what I said the first time. I don’t say these things to hurt you, I’m just trying to help.

Why are you always so sick. You’re depressed? We’re all depressed. You should thank me for giving you the luxury to be depressed. You don’t pay attention to anything. Why are you so tired. It’s annoying when you do that. You set the precedence, so I treat you accordingly. I hate when you do it that way. That’s wrong, don’t you ever listen? Why do you care about people so much. Why should I have to treat you better than you make other people treat you. You allow people to walk on you too much. Why do you cut people out of your life like that? It’s not healthy you know. The kids are attached at your hip- it’s not right.

Set boundaries with people. You need to be tougher. You daydream too much. Your feelings getting hurt is on you, not me. Why don’t you do nice things for me. It’s not my fault the kids only want you- you did that. We never go out or do anything. You’re so boring. You have no idea the stress I’m under. Why are the kids still awake. I don’t want to work all day and deal with this when I get home. I hate repetitive noises. You need to just get over it. That’s not even a big deal. Who cares. It doesn’t matter anyway. Why don’t you look at me like you used to. Its like you have no drive. Why don’t you talk to me anymore.

Where do you think you’re going. This job isn’t working out for us. You never touch me anymore. You need to think of the family. Why don’t you smile anymore. It doesn’t feel like you love me like you used to. I don’t care that you’re sick. It’s the kids fault. It’s your works fault. We never have any time. If we just had a hobby together it would be different. There’s so much clutter. I hate when you do that. I like it when you cry, you seem vulnerable and more human. Are you going to wear that. Why are you so emotional. They’re just words. You’re so immature. You know I was just joking. That’s just an excuse. If you cared you would have done it already.

You give up so easily. I’ve called your name multiple times and you’re not answering, it’s annoying that you’re like that when you read. That’s not how you do it. It doesn’t matter how hot a woman is, there’s always some guy who’s sick of fucking her. This is the way you wanted it so you deal with it. You’re doing it wrong. I don’t care that you’re deaf in one ear, I’ve been calling you over and over- plus I can’t hear either you know. You never finish anything.  You’re too distracted. Why do you take everything so seriously. But she’s able to work, take care of the house and go to school- you have no excuse. That’s not how you do it, I’ve told you this before. I’m tired of working around here- you guys break everything.

Where are you going. How are you going to get there? You think you’re going to take MY car. No, I can’t stop thinking about this or sleep, we need to talk now. Why are they having trouble at school. This was your decision- you live with the consequences. Make the kids help you. I hate repeating myself. Why don’t you smile anymore. Why aren’t you successful. I can’t find anything around here, you’re always cleaning and moving things around.

Look at this mess. You’ve set a precedence, so I’m not helping you. I need help. I didn’t want the stupid dogs anyway. I’ve told you this before. We wouldn’t be in this mess if you didn’t agree to it. You made this problem yourself. Did you do what I asked. How can you forget. What is wrong with you. You’ve changed. You’re not so happy anymore. You don’t look at me how you used to. I don’t feel the love from you I did before. You’re so cold now. You don’t even look at me- I see how you’ve changed. This has taken a lot out of me you know. My body is tired. You should be grateful. It doesn’t seem like you appreciate everything I do. You don’t smile anymore. Why don’t you love me. You need to just get over it. You should be happy. You’re just having a mid-life crisis. You stare too much. You don’t take anything seriously.

You’ve changed. You used to smile more. You used to show me you loved me. You used to look at me with happiness.

You’re not the same as you used to be.